the.tessa.loft

You’re the only person that ever made me feel anything, really feel. Even if it wasn’t always the best of feelings, you’re the only one who could make me smile or tear me down in three seconds flat. You’re the only person that can drive me crazy, in both good and bad ways. You’re the only person that ever made me feel like I didn’t have to try so hard. And I know that you’re not okay without me either, or you wouldn’t talk about such things as you do. I just wish you knew I still loved you, and I wish you would do something with that knowledge. I wish you would grab me and hold me tight in your arms and whisper in my ear how much you loved me more, like you always did.

(via wordsandlyrics)

Why does one begin to write? Because she feels misunderstood, I guess. Because it never comes out clearly enough when she tries to speak. Because she wants to rephrase the world, to take it in and give it back again differently, so that everything is used and nothing is lost.

Nicole Krauss (via wordsandlyrics)

[part 2]

finished up school.

took a great grad trip to italy.

grad trip. i was hesitant to go initially because i felt bad for spending all that money to go on a trip with my friends. some people think that grad trips are unnecessary, or see it as an indulgence…

certainly it was.. but on the other hand i was encouraged by friends to go for a trip, to get away and take a break. just get out there, and legit-ly go on a trip knowing that i’ve completed 4 years of hard work at a school. to see the world, to breathe.

breathe.

but… oh wells.

(though, the grad trip to italy was definitely awesome and all crap aside, i’m still thankful i got to go on this trip.)

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so, grad trip check.

now waiting for convocation in june.

and what’s next?

this inner voice in me saying “i need a job asap” now is rather stressful i’ve realised.

and living in sauge for a month now.

i have to admit.

i miss london, i miss my life in london,

i miss Western, i miss my friends,

i miss having them close by.

i miss my starbucks runs.

i miss the isolation.

having everything i had in london back in sauga,

still driving the same car around,

running errands, getting by daily.

but it is just different.

who said relocating was easy?

life’s changing day by day.

i need to get used to this.

So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they are chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives your purpose and meaning.

Randy Pausch (via wordsandlyrics)